2001-05-15 - 5:08 p.m. - brevis2

I want...

(more than I want my red eyes to go away)

either to dampen the fires of my spirit so that I should not fear

(but do I really want that? no...)

or to feed them, fuel them until they become an inferno,

consuming everything around me with their heat

impressing upon others what I feel.

I want...

to wake up to my own possibilities - which I know are there but to which I am blind -

to look around me and be aware of the miracles around me,

be aware of love surrounding me,

have others love me as fiercely as I love them

and vice versa.

I want, I want, I want.

I want...

to be brought within others, to be lost, to be consumed

and yet to bring others within me.

com-passion, forget the real world, feel my passions, my desires, my hopes, my dreams...

come with me on my journey, be my partner, lover, guide, charge-

come with me, liebchen, we'll away

for the view, it's

spectacular, I hear

we'll talk the night and keep despair at bay...

[more to come later]