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Alchera Alchera Alchera, we love Alchera's main page... But you'll want to click here to see the entry I've got. Well, sort of the entry I've got. You'll see what I mean. Before I go into that, however, I just want to mention how stuck I am on Alex. He is right now an idee fixe that will not get out of my head (and as I give the URL to more and more people I realize how many of them know him...) and this is terrible, because I can't do anything about it. Those of you who have passed beyond adolescence are perhaps snickering, thinking, "That poor, unknowing teenager." Well, I won't disagree with you. But I have to appeal to your sympathy: how many of you have stared (or darted quick glances at) someone, and moved quickly in your head from buggering to five years' worth of dating to marriage? You've even planned what you'll name the kids you adopt (or have, if you're lucky that way), and what pets you'll have, and how great your combined library will be. Well, maybe that last one is only me. So you'll guess what I'm doing to poor Alex, even though he doesn't know it. I wonder if this counts as a violation? I worry too much, I'll enjoy this while I can. I don't stare; I dart quick, confused glances like a nervous animal. (Because I've heard the nervous animal vibe is a good one to put off if you ever, ever, want sex.) I move us into a parallel universe where he's gay and get through most of it, except for the part where... Well, it's not that he's feminine, and it's not that I'm feminine, but when I put us together in my head walking down a street in redneckland, I see the pair of us lasting, oh, twenty minutes tops. I mean: it's just obvious. We don't even have to say anything. Or at least, I don't have to say anything, and the little life I've constructed just makes it that obvious. I'm making no sense. My tongue has been loosened from my brain; it won't be permanent, nor will it be that serious, but it's still rather unsettling. Boys I can't have shouldn't have this effect on me. The Alchera weekly challenge for the week of 5 II - 12 II has the following theme: "Abandon grammar and sentence structure and write a journal entry about anything! Write fast and don't stop until you feel like it." All right, well and good. But I never have time to myself and I'm never quite at peace with myself. Rather than trying to force time to one side and let the ruins flow around me... I did it during class. (Yes, Laurie, I'm cowering, I was a terrible terrible person, I'm sorry!) It happened in a blur, unless I was playing, and then I didn't write. I did scan the images as requested; I'm sorry if they're illegible on your computer. (They seem to read quite fine on my computer and on Raych's computer.) And my handwriting? Hey, I was writing fast. Some of it on the bus. I probably could have written more, but I thought the place where I ended was more or less logical. So, without further ado: All right, happy reading... sort of. Aren't you glad I type now? "imago verborum rasorum gallis" : the image of words having been scratched by chickens (hey, it's descriptive, no?) |
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